Originally Just July...Then We Added August

The title says it all... Originally we were coming down here to Florida to spend the month of July... as "planning" would have it, we decided to add August.

Nothing bad about this at all except that today is our last Florida morning. Later today we head back up north.

And so I wonder am I ready for that?

Because because....
 so much has been accomplished this summer down in sweet Florida... I have started writing again... my freelance writing. And I have started blogging again...right here on this site. I have started brainstorming and exploring some ideas. I have started taking those creative pictures again AND most importantly I have started sharing Annabelle again.

So am I ready?
I think so. I do have a plan. The writing and photography and book events have honestly been beyond rewarding. I do not want to lose this feeling. I do not want to not have the time to focus on it again. I do not want to push it aside.

I don't think I will. I do have a plan.
It involves writing and marketing at some crazy hours but it involves it for sure.  I believe it is worth it... worth the small sacrifice of less sleep because there are so many few things in life that are so rewarding and free.  So many few things.

What I think-----
that our Originally Just July will just have to be extended to September, October, November... and on.

So, sweet Florida, I thank you for your kind people, welcoming listeners, amazing landscapes, new experiences and immense inspiration. Thank you.

I am ready.

Love,
Me
JR
x

This is true. Sweet Life.

On the Side

First and foremost, I am what I still consider a new MOM.
Then, I am a wife

a sister
daughter
friend
aunt
cousin
sister-in-law
daughter-in-law
book club member
citizen
ummm
I'm sure more

Of course, my FULL time job come September is
teacher

BUT, on the side now and come September

I enjoy
so much more...
like being a
writer
a blogger
an Examiner
an amateur but somewhat talented photographer ;)

and these "On the Side" roles pop up every now and then on the world-wide web.

So this here blog is to link it all in one... to promote my "On the Side" and hope that some of you will open up some articles and hit the Subscribe button or comment or even purchase because even my "On the Side" has led me there with my little first book, "Annabelle's Love", and with my new full-of -love adventure of creating personalized greeting cards.

So to make it easier for you and even me, I will list all the places you can find a piece of my "On the Side" ...just one click and you are there!

I will even organize it for us! ;)

Places where you can purchase Annabelle's Love...

http://www.strategicpublishinggroup.com/title/AnnabellesLove.html

http://www.amazon.com/Annabelles-Love-Jenny-Ramirez-Hart/dp/160976515X

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/annabelles-love-jenny-ramirez-hart/1027195962

http://www.booksamillion.com/p/Annabelles-Love/Jenny-Ramirez-Hart/9781609765156?id=5450648710356

and many more sites... all you have to do is GOOGLE Jenny Ramirez Hart


A little video of me in Germany...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C9b-I2Itll0

Places where you can read my articles on Examiner...

http://www.examiner.com/marriage-in-newark/jenny-ramirez-hart

http://www.examiner.com/life-photos-in-newark/jenny-ramirez-hart

And my latest endeavor that I think I will reap great joy from is now this... the personalized cards project you can purchase on fiverr.com

http://fiverr.com/jennyetc

It seems I want to tackle it all and make it all possible... I mean who knows! Maybe... just maybe! My "On the Side" can be my "On the Center"? ;)

Nothing wrong with trying that's for sure... !

So thank you for taking the time to skim through this blog... and maybe even clicking on one or two sites. Any questions or comments? Just email them to me at jennyrh2010@yahoo.com

Thank you much!
Signed
x
Happy
Me

Sample cards x :)

Righting the Wrong

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and wonder if I can ever right what I have done wrong.
 Last night was one of those nights.

I sat with eyes wide open in the dark and wondered about the friends I once had who I hurt and disappointed. I wonder how they are and what if? I get angry, I get sad, I get self-righteous but mostly I get so regretful.

You see, the sad thing about life is you can never ever go back and change the actions you have made, the words you have said, the decisions, the looks, the everything. None of it. Can't change a thing.

So how does one move on? How can I move on?

I try. And I try. But I wake up sometimes in the middle of the night and wonder...

I am the one I cannot escape. I am the one who can never right the wrong it seems. I am the one who will judge myself the most and the hardest. Why?

Because deep down inside,  I knew what I should have done. I knew what I should not have done. I have always known the difference between right and wrong and yet... I did nothing about it. I continued on my merry way... ignoring my gut and running - just running far far away from me. Mirrors... forget about it... they were hard to look at.... very hard.

It has been a long time since I felt out of my skin but time has not yet allowed me to move on or forget.

So the question remains... is it possible to right the wrong? I suppose in some ways it is... I picture scenes of forgiveness and I know now my heart is in the right place, doing the right things, sending the best love to all those who I have disappointed. It is not always easy but it is worthwhile. Best part of it all is I am  able to look directly at the mirror and like who I see, respect who I see, admire who I see.  I am standing still and no longer running. I feel good in my skin even.

BUT...
I am sure there will be many more nights of me waking up in this fashion because clearly I can't seem to easily forgive myself... especially now---- I am surrounded by the most amazing family members and friends, by the most amazing blessings...this book, these opportunities and more. So sometimes I don't feel worthy of it all... which is why I will forever be trying to Right the Wrong.

Today signed-
regretful but trying,
me
Jenny R.
xxx

The Summer of New

This is certainly the Summer of New. New location, new air to breathe, new experiences to share, new people to know...new promises.

I have spent my days decompressing, adjusting and relishing in the nothing and yet the everything. It has been quite lovely...quite new.

All of this new "ness" has fostered such a sweet and sincere sense of happiness and content in my heart, and I feel the like the luckiest gal on earth.

I have wondered in the midst of all this bliss...will there be something to write about? Something to say? Or will I sound all mushy and ....mushy?

And my answer is... well, it's ...What's wrong with mushy? Of course, I will be able to write. In fact, I have two book ideas in mind...One has been started and the other will be formed into words very soon. I have these two ideas and at least one solid plan;)

What can be better than this?

N o t  a  s i n g l e  t h i n g.

That's why it is the summer of new. Summer of new faces, new experiences, new words, new ideas, new plans and new promises.

Love,
Me
Jenny R.

Sweet Summer Bliss. x

Revising "About Me"

April Break came and went and Annabelle sat still, ignored in my closet at the bottom of the pile.

My life got in the way.
Got in the way again.

Had some troubled dreams this week. Had some for lack of a-less-of-a-cliche-word..."inspirational" dreams. But when I wake up, I am troubled all over again. moreso.

Why? because I have been planning these big actions and setting aside a large number of articles in a folder called Marketing to read, analyze and apply to my book.( have been filing these away when my personal life became different...The "About Me" began its change.) AND NOTHING has been done. Not a thing.

Does this happen to many authors... writers? Am I truly a writer? Why can't I find the time to do more for Annabelle? How should I or could I? manage my time more wisely to fit it all in? Because my heart is breaking- breaking for my love of writing ...my love for my first baby, Annabelle.

Which brings me back to waking up even more troubled... I decided to take out one article from the folder and read it while I took care of another to-do " getting back in shape" and it started from here...read it, reviewed my Annabelle weekly page update...needless to say it looked depressing and decided I needed to rant and rave or in this case whine.... Things only got worse when I saw my "Occupation" title line and saw "Writer/Educator/Photographer".

It should say many other things I feel... Writer? Maybe not now. The "About Me" doesn't even resemble me much anymore. That too will need to be revised. ASAP.

So does this rant and whine make me feel better? any better?

guess I will see. but for now I remain waiting to be revised.

Having everything.

When I look back at old journal entries, blogs, writing pieces, pictures or other, I am often reminded of how my life felt incomplete...how I felt incomplete. Incomplete...not having everything.

I remember distinctly filling that void with other. Regrettably, some of the other I cannot change now. Some of that other I cannot forget or forgive still it seems.

Somehow, somehow, somehow...

despite the void and the wrong decisions, I took on a dream and made it come true.

"Annabelle's Love" was this dream.

Now...
My life feels complete, I feel complete...I have everything. My idea of everything...

And guess what?

The empty has been filled by love I could have never imagined
and the dream has been fulfilled by me...and still I feel that even with having everything, I can still have more...so much more.
Because although I cannot change my past decisions and actions, I know I can change my future...make other dreams come true...many other dreams.

And this time my future actions and dreams won't be accomplished to fill a void. But accomplished to only add more happiness and pride to my idea of having everything... love, E. and health.

I'm ready and set...truly happy at last!