April Break came and went and Annabelle sat still, ignored in my closet at the bottom of the pile.
My life got in the way.
Got in the way again.
Had some troubled dreams this week. Had some for lack of a-less-of-a-cliche-word..."inspirational" dreams. But when I wake up, I am troubled all over again. moreso.
Why? because I have been planning these big actions and setting aside a large number of articles in a folder called Marketing to read, analyze and apply to my book.( have been filing these away when my personal life became different...The "About Me" began its change.) AND NOTHING has been done. Not a thing.
Does this happen to many authors... writers? Am I truly a writer? Why can't I find the time to do more for Annabelle? How should I or could I? manage my time more wisely to fit it all in? Because my heart is breaking- breaking for my love of writing ...my love for my first baby, Annabelle.
Which brings me back to waking up even more troubled... I decided to take out one article from the folder and read it while I took care of another to-do " getting back in shape" and it started from here...read it, reviewed my Annabelle weekly page update...needless to say it looked depressing and decided I needed to rant and rave or in this case whine.... Things only got worse when I saw my "Occupation" title line and saw "Writer/Educator/Photographer".
It should say many other things I feel... Writer? Maybe not now. The "About Me" doesn't even resemble me much anymore. That too will need to be revised. ASAP.
So does this rant and whine make me feel better? any better?
guess I will see. but for now I remain waiting to be revised.
